Gobble Gobble to Sesame Street

So we went home Wednesday night after I got done with work for a long weekend of eating and family. And we did just that.

Kamryn always has so much fun with both grandparents and it's always so hard to go home at the end because she just cries when she has to leave Grandma and Grandpa's it breaks my heart. But I know that she loves them so much and has so much fun with them. Which it's times that that which makes me wish we lived closer!

Anways, so Thursday we ate Thanksgiving by Ken's parents, Friday morning Ken's mom and I went shopping and found some good deals as usual. Then Friday night we went over to my parents for Thanksgiving with my sister and her family. Always a good time, played some dominoes game for the first time which had way to many rules and regulations for my liking! Sorry Janell! :-)

Now unto the favorite part of the weekend! SUNDAY! Janell had gotten Kamryn Sesame Street Live tickets for her birthday and this was the weekend that was the show. Kaden and Kamryn had so much fun! I was a bit nervous, I just thought they may still be too young, but boy was I wrong. They LOVED IT!! It was so much fun watching them dance and clap and interact with the Sesame Street characters. If only my darn camera worked (hopefully Santa is reading this) decent we would have gotten some good shots, but hopefully you can still kinds see. It was just a great day with the kids and my sister. Thanks again Janell we really enjoyed it.

So now it's back to reality with work and housework and getting things decorated and ready for my favorite holiday! CHRISTMAS...................

Enjoy the pictures!!! I have a few more pictures on Facebook.


Sesame Street Gang "IMAGINING" they are on a boat!


Big Bird!


Abby and Elmo!


Grandma Puls and Kamryn looking at the turkey cake!


Turkey cake!

Thought I was "healed".

Tonight a friend of mine Jean invited me to a Tree of Light Rememberance Wreath Memorial Service. It's for people that have lost whether that be miscarriage, infant or child.

It has been about 3 years since my last miscarriage and I truly thought that things were better. Yes, I think about my babies everyday. Everyday I look at the tattoo I got for them and wish they were with me. EVERYDAY! But you know, I was doing good, I have Kamryn who is the love of my life. I am no longer in tears everytime I think about them.

So tonight I went to in all honesty to help support Carly and Jean since their losses were more recent then mine. But you know what? I wasn't much support.

I still hurt! I still miss my babies terribly and I cried! I cried a lot during the service. To be surrounded by people that are in the same boat as you and some whose loss were just a couple months new was heartwretching and comforting at the same time. To know that I'm not alone and that people are losing babies everyday. It felt good to let my feelings out to not be ashamed or imbarrassed that yes, I still hurt.

One saying that hit me hard was:

Perhaps they are not the stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.

I truly hope that my babies are happy in heaven and that when it's my time to go they are there to greet me at the gates of heaven and welcome their mommy home.

I love and miss you always!

Love Mommy! XX OO

Thanks for inviting me Jean.